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Hi I'm Ruby and I am a ghost!
I am an 18 y/o high school senior who lives out a dedicated otaku lifestyle in my basement!!
I love Totino's Pizza Rolls and mahou shoujo and toys and superheroes and gyaruge and pudding and dressing up and K-ON and that is pretty much it!!! "If it's not moe, I hate it!"

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theworstthingsforsale:

After a long day, I love to relax with a nice cold glass of 48 FLASHING LED ICE CUBES!!!
The product listing insists these plastic hellcubes will impress my friends, but none of my friends are raccoons or babies, so I don’t think it’ll work.

THIS BLOG IS SO BAD FOR ME I JUST CAME SO CLOSE TO PISSING MYSELF LAUGHING

theworstthingsforsale:

After a long day, I love to relax with a nice cold glass of 48 FLASHING LED ICE CUBES!!!

The product listing insists these plastic hellcubes will impress my friends, but none of my friends are raccoons or babies, so I don’t think it’ll work.

THIS BLOG IS SO BAD FOR ME I JUST CAME SO CLOSE TO PISSING MYSELF LAUGHING

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let’s get ice cream together

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lockedandloathed replied to your post: lockedandloathed replied to your post: i really…
I completely understand how you could have misunderstood. I live with a similar type of anxiety that prohibits me from doing certain things so I understand that it can’t be thought away or taught away.

Yeah, it really sucks how anxiety is so widely misunderstood by so many people, it’s such a hard thing to take control of. I’m really afraid that after college I’m not going to be able to leave my house. I need people and work constantly pushing me to keep me from letting it take over my life.

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asmoron replied to your post: Do you ever see something on your dashboard that’s…
no people are just boring and like boring things

there was just a picture of a subtitled anime screenshot of a bath house with a caption that didn’t make sense i forget what it was but it was something like “wow my muscles are so achy” and it had 708 notes and i stared at it for like 4 minutes just trying to figure out why

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lockedandloathed replied to your post: i really don’t like when people try to reason with…
I wasn’t referencing anything you said; it was about what 38sz was talking about. I’m not a professional so all I can speak to is a person making the effort to be happy and comfortable is making the right decision.

thank you ahh i misunderstood then i thought you meant me and i felt really embarrassed because a lot of people have done this to me and it always makes me feel bad inside haha

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i really don’t like when people try to reason with or argue/lecture me on my anxiety because um

i have a mental illness haha

it’s not something i can control all the time even though i try so hard and it’s really difficult and seemingly impossible to put into words

thanks guys, i see where you’re coming from but you don’t seem to understand and i think you’ve got it wrong u///u

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38sz:

couldn’t finish this in reply

you should really get over that you’re never going to grow that way. None of the external things and opinions matter in fact nothing really matters on the grand scale of things so why not live more logically constructive without the inconvenience of pride, emotions, values, things that have done nothing but really hold you back and isolate you. Look at things as they are and dissect them, study them. Sorry that sounds really lecturing

I’m a realist. I’m not an emotional person, and I do think logically, sometimes too much if that’s possible. But the thing is, I’ve been put through medication, therapy, and was thrown into special ed because I am legally listed under “emotionally disturbed” and into the “social anxiety” category. As much as I isolate myself from people, I’m still terrified of them after everything that’s happened to me. It’s something imprinted into my brain because of what happened to me, and I can’t help it. Though I’m aware it’s trivial and shouldn’t affect me, my body reacts to people badly and it ends up messing with my brain when things happen to me. I’m not sure how to describe how it happens, like, my brain flickers back and forth through logic and paranoia when my anxiety kicks in. I have flashbacks due to my memory loss sometimes and it’s extremely uncomfortable and can send me into convulsions, cold sweats, etc. It affects my entire being and I hate it. I’m already aware of what you said, but it’s going to take a lot of time to heal before I can fully control my condition.

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Do you ever see something on your dashboard that’s really ordinary or plain or uninteresting but it has an enormous amount of notes so you just stare at it for a really long time trying to understand why so many people want it on their blogs

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kotetsudick replied to your post: 7u7 replied to your post: Having a tracker for…
i visit your me tag because you’re really funny and you cheer me up omg

blushu blushu uwah

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7u7 replied to your post: Having a tracker for your blog is weird because…
i can’t even comprehend how anyone could hate you

Well thanks u//v//u

It’s mostly with girls, because girls have been really nasty to me in the past when I used to get bullied a lot, so if a girl smiles at me I get really scared and interpret it as a smirk like “wow what a dumbass” or something. I always feel like people think I’m really weird or dumb or annoying or something, and every time I talk to someone I feel like only bad things came out of my mouth. Luckily though I’m sort of friends with this guy at my school who is, in the most accurate term, a “popular guy” and we talk about people and he’s told me all the positive things he hears about me and it’s helped a lot. I didn’t know I was well-liked throughout my school until I started talking to him frequently.

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